Dearest E,
There I was, sitting on the sofa with you sleeping in my arms. Have not really spending this kind of time with you for a while. No TV, no mobile phone, no nothing. Just you and me and I could even hear your breathing. I still could not believe how much you have grown, you are no longer a newborn but an infant and soon you will be a pretty little girl. I love you so much..
Lately I just realise that not only I have you as my daughter, but you also have me as your mom. There are times when I am scared that I might 'fail' you. You desereve the best and nothing but the best, however I would be the first one to tell you that I most probably am not the best mother in the world. It does not mean I am not trying because I can promise you that I am trying my best to be the best mom for you.
There are times when I worry that I might spoil you too much that you will become a spoiled brat! I think I will need to let you face enough 'dissapointments' that you become a ressiliant and strong person, but not too much so that you become a negative and bitter person. I need to give you enough advice and direction so that hopefully you make the right decision everytime, but know my limit so I don't force what I want in your life.
I love you so much my baby girl. If I can, I want to protect you forever from any failures, pain, dissapointments, bad things and people. If I can, I want go give you everything you want so you can be happy every single day of your life. You know, you will definitely grow older, but remember this, you will always be my little girl and I will always be there for you.
Love, hugs and kisses,
Mom
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